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Chapter 1 THE SHADOW IN THE ROSE GARDEN

2018-04-15 作者： 外研社编译组

Chapter 1 THE SHADOW IN THE ROSE GARDEN

Www.Pinwenba.Com 吧by D. H. Lawrence

A rather small young man sat by the window of a pretty seaside cottage trying to persuade himself that he was reading the newspaper.It was about half past eight in the morning.Outside, the glory roses hung in the morning sunshine like little bowls of fire tipped up.The young man looked at the table, then at the clock, then at his own big silver watch.An expression of stiff endurance came on to his face.Then he rose and reflected on the oil paintings that hung on the walls of the room, giving careful but hostile attention to “The Stag at Bay”.He tried the lid of the piano, and found it locked.He caught sight of his own face in a little mirror, pulled his brown moustache, and an alert interest sprang into his eyes.He was not ill favoured.He twisted his moustache.His figure was rather small, but alert and vigorous.As he turned from the mirror a look of self commiseration mingled with his appreciation of his own physiognomy.

In a state of self suppression, he went through into the garden.His jacket, however, did not look dejected.It was new, and had a smart and self confident air, sitting upon a confident body.He contemplated the Tree of Heaven that flourished by the lawn, then sauntered on to the next plant.There was more promise in a crooked apple tree covered with brown red fruit.Glancing round, he broke off an apple and, with his back to the house, took a clean, sharp bite.To his surprise the fruit was sweet.He took another.Then again he turned to survey the bedroom windows overlooking the garden.He started, seeing a woman’s figure; but it was only his wife.She was gazing across to the sea, apparently ignorant of him.

For a moment or two he looked at her, watching her.She was a good looking woman, who seemed older than he, rather pale, but healthy, her face yearning.Her rich auburn hair was heaped in folds on her forehead.She looked apart from him and his world, gazing away to the sea.It irked her husband that she should continue abstracted and in ignorance of him; he pulled poppy fruits and threw them at the window.She started, glanced at him with a wild smile, and looked away again.Then almost immediately she left the window.He went indoors to meet her.She had a fine carriage, very proud, and wore a dress of soft white muslin.

“I’ve been waiting long enough,” he said.

“For me or for breakfast?” she said lightly.” You know we said nine o’clock. I should have thought you could have slept after the journey.”“You know I’m always up at five, and I couldn’t stop in bed after six.You might as well be inpit as in bed, on a morning like this.”

“I shouldn’t have thought the pit would occur to you, here.”

She moved about examining the room, looking at the ornaments under glass covers.He, planted on the hearthrug, watched her rather uneasily, and grudgingly indulgent.She shrugged her shoulders at the apartment.

“Come,” she said, taking his arm, “let us go into the garden till Mrs Coates brings the tray.”

“I hope she’ll be quick,” he said, pulling his moustache.She gave a short laugh, and leaned on his arm as they went.He had lighted a pipe.

Mrs Coates entered the room as they went down the steps.The delightful, erect old lady hastened to the window for a good view of her visitors.Her china blue eyes were bright as she watched the young couple go down the path, he walking in an easy, confident fashion, with his wife, on his arm.The landlady began talking to herself in a soft, Yorkshire accent.

“Just of a heightthey are.She wouldn’t ha’ married a man less than herself in stature, I think, though he’s not her equal otherwise.”Here her granddaughter came in, setting a tray on the table.The girl went tothe old woman’s side.

“He’s been eating the apples, gran’,” she said.

“Has he, my pet?Well, if he’s happy, why not?”

Outside, the young,well favoured man listened with impatience to the chink of the teacups.At last, with a sigh of relief, the couple came in to breakfast.After he had eaten for some time, he rested a moment and said:

“Do you think it’s any better place than Bridlington?”

“I do,” she said, “infinitely!Besides, I am athome here it’s not like a strange sea side place to me.”

“How long were you here?”

“Two years.”

He ate reflectively.

“I should ha’ thought you’d rather go to a fresh place,” he said at length.

She sat very silent, and then, delicately, put out a feeler.

“Why?”she said.“Do you think I shan’t enjoy myself?”

He laughed comfortably, putting the marmalade thick on his bread.

“I hope so,” he said.

She again took no notice of him.

“But don’t say anything about it in the village, Frank,” she said casually.“Don’t say who I am, or that I used to live here.There’s nobody I want to meet, particularly, and we should never feel free if they knew me again.”

“Why did you come, then?”

“‘Why?’Can’t you understand why?”

“Not if you don’t want to know anybody.”

“I came to see the place, not the people.”

He did not say any more.

“Women,” she said, “are different from men.I don’t know why I wanted to come but I did.”

She helped him to another cup of coffee, solicitously.

“Only,” she resumed, “don’t talk about me in the village.”She laughed shakily.“I don’t want my past brought up against me, you know.”And she movedthe crumbs on the cloth with her finger tip.

He looked at her as he drank his coffee; he sucked his moustache, and putting down his cup, said phlegmatically:

“I’ll bet you’ve had a lot of past.”

She looked with a little guiltiness, that flattered him, down at the tablecloth.

“Well,” she said, caressive, “you won’t give me away, who I am, will you?”

“No,” he said, comforting, laughing, “I won’t give you away.”

He was pleased.

She remained silent.After a moment or two she lifted her head, saying:

“I’ve got to arrange with Mrs Coates, and do various things.So you’d better go out by yourself this morning and we’ll be in to dinner at one.”

“But you can’t be arranging with Mrs Coates all morning,” he said.

“Oh, well thenI’ve some letters to write, and I must get that mark out of my skirt.I’ve got plenty of little things to do this morning.You’d better go out by yourself.”

He perceived that she wanted to be rid of him, so that when she went upstairs, he took his hat and lounged out on to the cliffs, suppressedlyangry.

Presently she toocame out.She wore a hat with roses, and a long lace scarf hung over her white dress.Rather nervously, she put up her sunshade, and her face was half hidden in its coloured shadow.She went along the narrow track of flag stones that were worn hollow by the feet of the fishermen.She seemed to be avoiding her surroundings, as if she remained safe in the little obscurity of her parasol.

She passed the church, and went down the lane till she came to a high wall by the wayside.Under this she went slowly, stopping at length by an open doorway, which shone like a picture of light in the dark wall.There in the magic beyond the doorway, patterns of shadow lay on the sunny court, on the blue and white sea pebbles of its paving, while a green lawn glowed beyond, where a bay tree glittered at the edges.She tiptoed nervously into the courtyard, glancing at the house that stood in shadow.The uncurtained windows looked black and soulless, the kitchen door stood open.Irresolutely she took a step forward, and again forward, leaning, yearning, towards the garden beyond.

She had almost gained the corner of the house when a heavy step came crunching through the trees.A gardener appeared before her.He held a wicker tray on which were rolling great, dark red gooseberries, overripe.He moved slowly.

“The garden isn’t open today,” he said quietly to the attractive woman, who was poised for retreat.

For a moment she was silent with surprise.How should it be public at all?

“When is it open?”she asked, quick witted.

“The rector lets visitors in on Fridays and Tuesdays.”

She stood still, reflecting.How strange tothink of the rector opening his garden to the public!

“But everybody will be at church,” she said coaxingly to the man.“There’ll be nobody here, will there?”

He moved, and the big gooseberries rolled.

“The rector lives at the new rectory,” he said.

The two stood still.He did not like to ask her to go.At last she turned to him with a winning smile.

“Might I have ONE peep at the roses?”she coaxed, with pretty wilfulness.

“I don’t suppose it would matter,” he said, moving aside:“you won’t stop long ”

She went forward, forgetting the gardener in a moment.Her face became strained, her movements eager.Glancing round, she saw all the windows giving on to the lawn were curtainless and dark.The house had a sterile appearance, as if it were still used, but not inhabited.A shadow seemed to go over her.She went across the lawn towards the garden, through an arch of crimson ramblers, a gate of colour.There beyond lay the soft blue sea with the bay, misty with morning, and the farthest headland of black rock jutting dimly out between blue and blue of the sky and water.Her face began to shine, transfigured with pain and joy.At her feet the garden fell steeply, all a confusion of flowers, and away below was the darkness of tree tops covering the beck.

She turned to the garden that shone with sunny flowers around her.She knew the little corner where was the seat beneath the yew tree.Then there was the terrace where a great host of flowers shone, and from this, two paths went down, one at each side of the garden.She closed her sunshade and walked slowly among the many flowers.All round were rose bushes, big banks of roses, then roses hanging and tumbling from pillars, or roses balanced on the standard bushes.By the open earth were many other flowers.If she lifted her head, the sea was upraised beyond, and the Cape.

Slowly she went down one path, lingering, like one who has gone back into the past.Suddenly she was touching some heavy crimson roses that were soft as velvet, touching them thoughtfully, without knowing, as a mother sometimes fondles the hand of her child.She leaned slightly forward to catch the scent.Then she wandered on in abstraction.Sometimes a flame coloured, scentless rose would hold her arrested.She stood gazing at it as if she could not understand it.Again the same softness of intimacy came over her, as she stood before a tumbling heap of pink petals.

Then she wondered over the white rose, that was greenish, like ice, in the centre.So, slowly, like a white, pathetic butterfly, she drifted down the path, coming at last to a tiny terrace all full of roses.They seemed to fill the place, a sunny, gay throng.She was shy of them, they were so many and so bright.They seemed to be conversing and laughing.She felt herself in a strange crowd.It exhilarated her, carried her out of herself.She flushed with excitement.The airwas pure scent.

Hastily, she went to a little seat among the white roses, and sat down.Her scarlet sunshade made a hard blot of colour.She sat quite still, feeling her own existence lapse.She was no more than a rose, a rose that could not quite come into blossom, but remained tense.A little fly dropped on her knee, on her white dress.She watched it, as if it had fallen on a rose.She was not herself.

Then she started cruelly as a shadow crossed her and a figure moved into her sight.It was a man who had come in slippers, unheard.He wore a linen coat.The morning was shattered, the spell vanished away.She was only afraid of being questioned.He came forward.She rose.Then, seeing him, the strength went from her and she sank on the seat again.

He was a young man, military in appearance, growing slightly stout.His black hair was brushed smooth and bright, his moustache was waxed.But there was something rambling in his gait.She looked up, blanched to the lips, and saw his eyes.They were black, and stared without seeing.They were not a man’s eyes.He was coming towards her.

He stared at her fixedly, made unconscious salute, and sat down beside her on the seat.He moved on the bench, shifted his feet, saying, in a gentlemanly, military voice:

“I don’t disturb you do I?”

She was mute andhelpless.He was scrupulously dressed in dark clothes and a linen coat.She could not move.Seeing his hands, with the ring she knew so well upon the little finger, she felt as if she were going dazed.The whole world was deranged.She sat unavailing.Forhis hands, her symbols of passionate love, filled her with horror as they rested now on his strong thighs.

“May I smoke?”he asked intimately, almost secretly, his hand going to his pocket.

She could not answer, but it did not matter, he was in another world.She wondered, craving, if he recognized her if he could recognize her.She sat pale with anguish.But she had to go through it.

“I haven’t got any tobacco,” he said thoughtfully.

But she paid noheed to his words, only she attended to him.Could he recognize her, or was it all gone?She sat stillin a frozen kind of suspense.

“I smoke John Cotton,” he said, “and I must economize with it, it is expensive.You know, I’m not very well off while these lawsuits are going on.”

“No,” she said, and her heart was cold, her soul kept rigid.

He moved, made a loose salute, rose, and went away.She sat motionless.She could see his shape, the shape she had loved, with all her passion: his compact, soldier’s head, his fine figure now slackened.And it was not he.It only filled her with horror too difficult to know.

Suddenly he came again, his hand in his jacket pocket.

“Do you mind if I smoke?”he said.“Perhaps I shall be able to see things more clearly.”

He sat down beside her again, filling a pipe.She watched his hands with the fine strong fingers.They had always inclined to tremble slightly.It had surprised her, long ago, in such a healthy man.Now they moved inaccurately, and the tobacco hung raggedly out of the pipe.

“I have legal business to attend to.Legal affairs are always so uncertain.I tell my solicitor exactly, precisely what I want, but I can never get it done.”

She sat andheard him talking.But it was not he.Yet those were the hands she had kissed, there were the glistening, strange black eyes that she had loved.Yet it was not he.She sat motionless with horror and silence.He dropped his tobacco pouch, and groped for it on the ground.Yet she must wait if he would recognize her.Why could she not go!In a moment he rose.

“I must go at once,” he said.“The owl is coming.”Then he added confidentially: “His name isn’t really the owl, but I call him that.I must goand see if he has come.”

She rosetoo.He stood before her, uncertain.He was a handsome, soldierly fellow, and a lunatic.Her eyes searched him, and searched him, to see if he would recognize her, if she could discover him.

“You don’t know me?”she asked, from theterror of her soul, standing alone.

He looked backat her quizzically.She had to bear his eyes.They gleamed on her, but with no intelligence.He was drawingnearer to her.

“Yes, I do know you,” he said, fixed, intent, but mad, drawing his face nearer hers.Her horror was too great.The powerful lunatic was coming too near to her.

A man approached, hastening.